When was the last time you felt really, truly lonely?
When we first moved to Colorado, my marriage wasn’t in the best shape. My husband’s affair was still really fresh and ever-present on my mind. The move meant that I had to leave my friend and ally behind, so those were some of the loneliest times of my life. I felt like I had no one. I was functional as I still had to be Andre’s mom and I was still William’s wife. However, I could be in a room with William back then and feel so absolutely lonely that it hurt.
I would have never thought that you could be in the room with another person and still feel lonely. Not before I found myself in that position. We were so disconnected back then. It hurt to look at him. I hated the sound of his voice, his touch, his stupid face (lol). I was completely cut off with no one to lean on. No one to talk to. That was the last time I felt really truly lonely.