On 15 September I wrote a blog letting you know about the new brother I’d found. I was very excited. Even after our first conversation. Truth be told we’ve only spoken once, via text message since I wrote that blog. We also sent each other an email with pictures of our Mother in them. But that’s it.
Well last night I found out from my older brother that new baby bro doesn’t want to have a relationship with me because I wasn’t actually raised, at all, by our mother. He tried to get Jojo (my older brother) to agree to only have a relationship with him because of their connection of our mother. Jojo flipped out evidently, told him she is just as much my sister is she is yours, she was born before you, have some respect.
Long story short, he said if he never heard from him again it would be okay with him. He is my big bro and he would never turn his back on me, for no one. So sweet, but I can’t help but feel some guilt. I mean, the main reason I looked for Nico in the first place is because of Joseph. I wanted him to have all the pieces to the puzzle. Now he has them and he doesn’t want them. I can kinda understand why though, baby brother is very immature and rather childish. I got that in the first conversation but blew it off because he is blood. He’s barely 25/26 years old. He hasn’t lived any kind of life yet. I don’t know if turning our backs is a good thing.
At any rate, I don’t see a relationship happening. I’ll attempt to keep the line of communication open even if it is just 4 texts a year. (Happy Birthday, Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, Happy New Year) I’m not hurt, I don’t think I really care. I actually kind of find it funny that he didn’t want a relationship with me because I wasn’t actually raised by our mother and had no real memories of her. He seems a little stuck in the past. He lost his mother and he’s never gotten over the loss. I feel sorry for him really. Can’t go back… can’t move forward. Where do you do?